As each day passes by, we sometimes think and take for granted that things will not change, though the inevitable truth is that things DO change... one way or the other... in ways we may like or not like.. but change does happen...
We usually have monday morning meetings and today started with one of those.. Usually before something really bad happens, I tend to feel down and upset.. it's like a vibe that sets in me and stays comfortably making my life hell till I know what it's about...
So that happened today.. and I figured what it was.. I was in 2 groups and now been put into one as there are some new recruits... and one account was taken from me as that account belonged to the other group.. It was an account I loved and enjoyed working on... and that really saddened me.. In fact, the meeting started with the statement "some people may feel sad about the changes that are about to happen....." and that was undoubtedly me as everyone knew how much I loved it..
Giving things up and letting people go is the only thing that keeps happening over and over and no matter how much you go through it, it still gets to you every time it happens... smiles turn into frowns and sadness and sometimes sadness and frowns turn into smiles... Being over sensitive really doesn't help either...
I've having a hard time getting over it.. I've to hand over my work now to the new recruit and that sure is going to hurt a bit....
I want my mood to change... to be able to accept that this change is done and dusted and I need to move on yet again... I wondered if I was being a dramaqueen with this and getting too attached to what I do, but then again, if you don't love something about work, and if you don't get something out of it, where does the worth of holding on lie?
I've got another new account to work on.... and I know it's not going to be anything like what I'm about to give up by the end of this week...
Letting go is all I seem to be doing.. over and over and over... and I'm afraid that something else I got myself into is going to end up like that too, soon.... heaven knows...
Change, it can sometimes be good... sometimes bad... sometimes sad.. sometimes unexpected.... so many avenues through which it can come.... you will never know how it's going to affect you.
Just really really needed to let it out.... and now I need to somehow get my poker face on....
We usually have monday morning meetings and today started with one of those.. Usually before something really bad happens, I tend to feel down and upset.. it's like a vibe that sets in me and stays comfortably making my life hell till I know what it's about...
So that happened today.. and I figured what it was.. I was in 2 groups and now been put into one as there are some new recruits... and one account was taken from me as that account belonged to the other group.. It was an account I loved and enjoyed working on... and that really saddened me.. In fact, the meeting started with the statement "some people may feel sad about the changes that are about to happen....." and that was undoubtedly me as everyone knew how much I loved it..
Giving things up and letting people go is the only thing that keeps happening over and over and no matter how much you go through it, it still gets to you every time it happens... smiles turn into frowns and sadness and sometimes sadness and frowns turn into smiles... Being over sensitive really doesn't help either...
I've having a hard time getting over it.. I've to hand over my work now to the new recruit and that sure is going to hurt a bit....
I want my mood to change... to be able to accept that this change is done and dusted and I need to move on yet again... I wondered if I was being a dramaqueen with this and getting too attached to what I do, but then again, if you don't love something about work, and if you don't get something out of it, where does the worth of holding on lie?
I've got another new account to work on.... and I know it's not going to be anything like what I'm about to give up by the end of this week...
Letting go is all I seem to be doing.. over and over and over... and I'm afraid that something else I got myself into is going to end up like that too, soon.... heaven knows...
Change, it can sometimes be good... sometimes bad... sometimes sad.. sometimes unexpected.... so many avenues through which it can come.... you will never know how it's going to affect you.
Just really really needed to let it out.... and now I need to somehow get my poker face on....
Awww LD you are no Drama Queen you are just a sensitive person. If only you knew the DRAMA I was grappling with the past few weeks you would realize so. Mine was like a spectacular full length production of the workshop players. By the way remember this if something is meant to be done by you it will happen one way or the other. This is experience talking. I have lost presentations and in the end the business has come my way due to various reasons. Remember nothing is permanent. Ok now go back and put on your poker face on I am going to put my artificial/plastic smile on. yes am going for client meeting
ReplyDeleteThank you CJ..... feel bit better.. :) Well, at your position, I can only IMAGINE what you would've gone through and deal with day in and day out....
ReplyDeleteGood luck with the meeting! and keep that smile on for it will become real one day...:) sooooooon! yea, Look who's talking eh? ;)
Take care LD! I am sure there is good stuff in store for you soon.
ReplyDeleteI know it's hard to give up on something that you've worked so hard for, that it seems to have absorbed a little bit of your soul. If it's any comfort, I'm sure the client of the account that was taken from you will definitely feel the difference!
ReplyDeleteTake care, LD!
Change can be hard but unfortunately it's a hard fact of life. Then again, without it life would be boring too.
ReplyDeleteTC. Hope the rest of the week turns out awesome :)
You're a bigger DramaQueen than I am.
ReplyDeletelowa siyalu de aniththyai :)
ReplyDeleteSanthoshi - thank you... :)
ReplyDeleteAngel - thanks so much.. giving up something you enjoy sure does feel sad...
Azrael- sure is hard.. and thanks... wish you the same!
DQ - yeah....:P
hoot-a-toot - yes yes... :)