Dear Dad,
It’s been six years now since you passed away. In those 6 yrs, so much has happened that if I ever had the chance to sit with you and have a conversation to fill you up on what you’ve missed, I wouldn’t even know where to start.
Yes I miss you more than anything in the world and my life today would’ve been so much more different if you were around, and better. But I guess fate had a different story which we’re living right now.
I’ve had graduations, where I missed you and never got the chance to hear and feel your congratulations and make you feel like everything you’ve done for me was worth it. My graduation photos are so empty without you...
I’ve had conversations with friends who said they’d love to trade in their dads for you coz you were always jovial and nice to everyone and you were understanding.
I miss the fact that I never got the chance to buy you gifts from money that I earned by working really hard.
I miss the late night drives, the laughter and humour, the temple visits, the cooking, the countless shopping sprees where you’d calmly follow me around and help me shop etc.....
I’ve grown so much from the daddy’s girl I was at the age of 21, which you missed, to the woman I’m today. I miss telling you about all the praise I get, all the good work I do.. I miss telling you how much I try to be like you... try to bring out the goodness which you’ve instilled in me...
I’ve been through good and bad times.. I’ve been emotionally drawn to a deep black hole... I’ve gone against you in one thing which is when I started smoking. But I’m all better now.. I’ve learnt things the hard way...
I miss so many things that a post will not be enough for me to list things down. I hope you’ve moved onto a better place... I hope all the good Karma you’ve gathered gives you a good life. I hope and pray that you would be my dad always in lives to come. You’re all I know... and will ever know...
Your daddy’s girl,
LD.
Wednesday, April 27, 2011
Tuesday, April 19, 2011
To be back...
felt really great. One week in India this time nearly drove me nuts! Lot of work, tension and all that... missed Avrudu..:( mum and bro had been alone this time and it broke my heart to pieces when I heard that....
But, they've brightened up after all the presents I brought them... and the sweets and chocolates..:)
I will post about my trip when I get some breathing space. Work's been a nightmare. People in creative called me complaining that the person who was handling my work in my absence was not at all helping and they kept saying 'pls come baaaaaaack'. This was also conveyed on their status messages on FB.
This made me feel sad. The fact that I can't even take a break. Yes, there's a lot of work happening and all but it's not like I went on a trip to have fun. I was on work!
Then again, after I came to SL, I wasn't feeling too well as I had tummy cramps and all that. Yet, I was asked to somehow come to work. I really felt awful. Oh well, life in the corporate world it is I suppose.
Other than that, there is one thing I should mention. When I was in Bangalore, the hotel porter took my passport to take a photocopy. He was looking at it and examining it, then looking at me, looking at it again as if he had seen my picture on a 'Most wanted' criminal poster.
He later gave me my passport and we got into the elevator with our luggage. On our way up, he looked at me, straight in the eyes, and said "Sri Langa lost the maaaatch. The world cup". He then grinned like an idiot and the grin didn't go off his stupid face for a long time.
I just smiled back and had many thoughts to myself and deep down I was still proud to be Lanka.:) I'm surprised I didn't glare at him or kill him with my hand luggage. If my temper had risen, I could've done just that.
But then, I realised it wasn't worth giving into petty comments by people like him. Atleast his team is in one piece and the country's at peace with it.
so yea.. that's one story. More to come. Especially about this eagle that came to my window sill every afternoon at 3pm sharp. :)
Belated Avrudu wishes to all. Hope it's been a great new year so far.:)
But, they've brightened up after all the presents I brought them... and the sweets and chocolates..:)
I will post about my trip when I get some breathing space. Work's been a nightmare. People in creative called me complaining that the person who was handling my work in my absence was not at all helping and they kept saying 'pls come baaaaaaack'. This was also conveyed on their status messages on FB.
This made me feel sad. The fact that I can't even take a break. Yes, there's a lot of work happening and all but it's not like I went on a trip to have fun. I was on work!
Then again, after I came to SL, I wasn't feeling too well as I had tummy cramps and all that. Yet, I was asked to somehow come to work. I really felt awful. Oh well, life in the corporate world it is I suppose.
Other than that, there is one thing I should mention. When I was in Bangalore, the hotel porter took my passport to take a photocopy. He was looking at it and examining it, then looking at me, looking at it again as if he had seen my picture on a 'Most wanted' criminal poster.
He later gave me my passport and we got into the elevator with our luggage. On our way up, he looked at me, straight in the eyes, and said "Sri Langa lost the maaaatch. The world cup". He then grinned like an idiot and the grin didn't go off his stupid face for a long time.
I just smiled back and had many thoughts to myself and deep down I was still proud to be Lanka.:) I'm surprised I didn't glare at him or kill him with my hand luggage. If my temper had risen, I could've done just that.
But then, I realised it wasn't worth giving into petty comments by people like him. Atleast his team is in one piece and the country's at peace with it.
so yea.. that's one story. More to come. Especially about this eagle that came to my window sill every afternoon at 3pm sharp. :)
Belated Avrudu wishes to all. Hope it's been a great new year so far.:)
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