Mum : LD, if I ask you something, will you be honest with me?
Me : umm...does it require me to lie at some point? Tough question?
Mum : LD! *in a stern voice*
Me: ok,ok, what is it?
Mum : Are you sad or hurt about something? Is something bothering you?
Me : Umm.. what made you ask that? *I looked away*
Mum : I sense you're upset though you don't show it much or talk about it.
Me : Nah... nothing really.
Mum : I brought you up. I know you. Though you appear to be strong, you break down inside sometimes.
Me : I'm getting late. Can you close the gate after I leave?
Mum : Hmm.. Budu Saranai.
And she sprinkled blessed water all over Mandy like she does every morning and muttered a prayer for safety. My safety.
Then she watches me drive away, till she sees the car no more...
It saddens me when I think of how she plans out her day afterwards to keep herself occupied, to keep herself from losing her mind. My brother and I lose ourselves in the IT and corporate world... and later, she waits...eagerly... till we return home late at night..
Her request is that I watch TV with her for a while and talk to her. at night.. which I do whenever I can..
There's so much that we take for granted....
One thing for sure, we can never repay them for everything they do, for all they've done... and for all they will do.... ever..
Me : umm...does it require me to lie at some point? Tough question?
Mum : LD! *in a stern voice*
Me: ok,ok, what is it?
Mum : Are you sad or hurt about something? Is something bothering you?
Me : Umm.. what made you ask that? *I looked away*
Mum : I sense you're upset though you don't show it much or talk about it.
Me : Nah... nothing really.
Mum : I brought you up. I know you. Though you appear to be strong, you break down inside sometimes.
Me : I'm getting late. Can you close the gate after I leave?
Mum : Hmm.. Budu Saranai.
And she sprinkled blessed water all over Mandy like she does every morning and muttered a prayer for safety. My safety.
Then she watches me drive away, till she sees the car no more...
It saddens me when I think of how she plans out her day afterwards to keep herself occupied, to keep herself from losing her mind. My brother and I lose ourselves in the IT and corporate world... and later, she waits...eagerly... till we return home late at night..
Her request is that I watch TV with her for a while and talk to her. at night.. which I do whenever I can..
There's so much that we take for granted....
One thing for sure, we can never repay them for everything they do, for all they've done... and for all they will do.... ever..
"she waits...eagerly... till we return home late at night." My mother is the same. Since I started my new job, I can't call her during the day as often as I used to and I know she feels it.
ReplyDelete"we can never repay them for everything they do" - I so agree. We will never even understand what they went through till we become parents ourselves. :/
ReplyDelete"we can never repay them for everything they do" ... so so true ..
ReplyDeleteumm!!!! yep !!! but sometimes no matter how much I love them I wanna shut ma self up in ma room and be left alone with out spending the night with them....
ReplyDeleteChavie - I know.. I sometimes wonder how they did all what they've done...
ReplyDeleteBingo - I know hun. I know...
your mom is so sweet. i can relate to her emotions.... but you're a good kid...she need'nt worry as much as she does !
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