I first started working when I was reading for my degree. Third year was industrial placement and we had to work for a MNC as trainees in a dept of our choice and this had to be linked to the subjects that we would choose as our majors in the final year.
I chose marketing. I remember going to a brilliant MNC with a bunch of my batchmates. A few of us got selected and were put to work. Duration was one year and majority wanted to be in Marketing. Many of them managed to get into brands where they had contacts and had made prior arrangements. I had no such contacts. I usually got about all my work on my own. My family never really helped coz they always know I handle my own stuff. If I asked for assistance, they would ofcourse do all what they could. But they’re all so confident and know I have an independent nature where I can get many things done on my own.
So the day we started work, batchmates were assigned to the different depts and the respective bosses came and took them. Marketing was divided into three categories. I was left out though. I was seated in H.R for two days. I was sad that everyone had got their place and I hadn’t. I was supposed to be put into a category where no other interns were there as only one was needed. But that director had gone abroad that week so I had to wait while the boss I would be assigned to got approval from the director she reported to.
The H.R manager told me that I can take the rest of the week off and come the following Monday and that I don’t need to find another place or anything. Can you imagine what that felt like? I cried on my way home. I wanted to go somewhere and just weep. I’m a Buddhist, but I love churches. So I went to All Saints in Borella (this was in mid 2004), sat all by myself and cried for about an hour.
Then I went home, told my mum what happened and slept while crying. My mum was clearly upset but she only makes things worse by talking more about it. So I decided to go deaf whenever she spoke and survived till the following Monday.
Then I went to work, director had come and I was given my own workstation and briefed about the brands I was to handle. I had work and enjoyed it. I was the only intern in that section and little by little people got to know of my helpful nature and got very friendly with me. I was treated more like the ‘little one’ coz I was very young. But I know people loved the way I worked.
My immediate boss was a pretty lady in her late twenties. She was married to her highschool sweetheart and she was a lady who knew how to balance her life well. Her husband was loads of fun and she always cared about me. She loved me to bits. She was fun, ambitious, successful and a great manager. But many people hated her. Some didn’t like her at all. Some were just nice to her face as she was a manager who was close to her director and could do just about anything.
So I got friendly with a few others in the company, some of whom got very close. There was one guy (the graphic designer) who was very open with me and loved working with me. He always got my work done on time. Once he said something that truly touched me. He said that my boss always praised me when a bunch of people met for lunch and had said that she loved to see the way I worked… how I got along with people in all walks of life… how I always knew how to get things done on time and how great I was as I cared for people.
When my dad died, I was interning. It was in early 2005. I was at the hospital when he died. It was at about 2am and my boss actually called and came all the way to my house. She brought lots of things and offered me money if I needed any and hugged me for a long time. I was obviously in shock and I didn’t speak for a long time.
I was only an intern, who earned just about 3k a month as it was a rule that we couldn’t be paid more than that coz we were there to learn and not to earn. My boss came each and everyday. The next day early in the morning, the director turned up at my house with her husband! I was just knocked off my feet! My friends were all so shocked that they cared so much for an intern like me and some were jealous too. (sadly)
They helped so much. The director and my dept people got together and pooled in money and gave the entire meal for the people on the day that my dad's body was cremated, which is a Buddhist ritual. There were about 350 people and they took care of everything. The director had made the highest contribution, which I found out a few months later.
This made me think that my boss actually cared about me. She helped me a lot. She loved me to bits and I loved her back the same. She used to confide in me and tell me things about her life. The day I finished my internship, she gave me a lovely farewell at office. She had ordered food that I liked… and gave me loads of vouchers from Odel and gave the most touching speech ever. Usually, non of this is done for an intern. But there were many people from all depts who came to wish me. My boss actually cried when giving the farewell speech.
In return I said a few words about her and she just burst out crying. It was such a sad day. But I felt so appreciated and so cared for and loved.
Today, she’s doing very well. She keeps track of me whenever she can. But she’s got a lovely baby now after trying for years and going through a lot of problems. So I try to keep in touch whenever I get time. I still love her and appreciate all what she has done. I make an effort to keep in touch.
Sorry it’s a long post. Why all this all of a sudden? I was thinking about people I appreciate and care about last night and she came into my mind. :) what she did, will remain to be a beautiful and heartfelt memory for always. She was the best boss ever!
I'm not boasting about myself... She is the one who made me realise what I was... and how good I actually am...:)She showed me who I was.... and that I appreciate too.
Friday, January 30, 2009
Thursday, January 29, 2009
One gloomy day after another...
It's like the cycle never ends sometimes..... Strangely even little things get to me and just sucks my good moods into a big black hole and only lets the depressed one finds it's way to the outer surface.
Last morning, I was in more of a neutral mood and while reversing my car out, I scraped it slightly against the wall and there are a few scratch marks on top of the left back tire.. Ok Ok...DramaQueen saw it and said it was nothing... so yea, small scratch marks but I take care of Mandy (my ride) like a baby...:( and I was sad... Guess I'll take it for a proper was/polish job and it'll clear the problem to an extent...
Then after getting to work, the road that leads to the parking area was totally dug up coz some piping work was going on and I had to park in another lane... I managed to get one scratch line on the front buffer too! argh!
Then this morning, I was trying to turn on the wiper at the back and since nothing was happening I asked my mum to just check and she was like "WHERE the hell did you park yesterday? someone has stolen your wiper!" sigh! :( Now I have to go get one over the weekend...
THEN, as I checked mail a little while ago, I get this email with lovely pictures in it from a friend I used to work with long ago... As I glanced at the first pic, I knew who's it was. I just know his stuff now.. I just know it too well... The friend who sent the mail to me knows nothing... it was just forwarded...
When I went through the mail, it gave me this feeling... which makes you go so warm... and your heart beats faster and you can feel every beat... and then you keep getting warm... and you feel like the tears are getting to your eyes but you don't let them fall... you think you won't look at the next pic but you just do... it just happens.. and when you get to the end of it, you just stare.... and take so much of effort to close it and get going...and then you just freeze and there are thoughts streaming through your mind and you can't seem to stop them...
Why did this hurt so much? Why did it feel this way? He is majorly into photography... major skill.. great eye for capturing nature's beauty... and I always enjoyed looking at his work...commenting... and praising him... his work is stunning... and I helped him get awards on a site in which he publishes his work...
Ok, I need to get out of this mood... A chocolate sundae with extra topping will work? Or a coffee chill with blueberry cheese cake? Hmmm....wait! I still have a slight throat pain.... aahhhh nevermind!
Last morning, I was in more of a neutral mood and while reversing my car out, I scraped it slightly against the wall and there are a few scratch marks on top of the left back tire.. Ok Ok...DramaQueen saw it and said it was nothing... so yea, small scratch marks but I take care of Mandy (my ride) like a baby...:( and I was sad... Guess I'll take it for a proper was/polish job and it'll clear the problem to an extent...
Then after getting to work, the road that leads to the parking area was totally dug up coz some piping work was going on and I had to park in another lane... I managed to get one scratch line on the front buffer too! argh!
Then this morning, I was trying to turn on the wiper at the back and since nothing was happening I asked my mum to just check and she was like "WHERE the hell did you park yesterday? someone has stolen your wiper!" sigh! :( Now I have to go get one over the weekend...
THEN, as I checked mail a little while ago, I get this email with lovely pictures in it from a friend I used to work with long ago... As I glanced at the first pic, I knew who's it was. I just know his stuff now.. I just know it too well... The friend who sent the mail to me knows nothing... it was just forwarded...
When I went through the mail, it gave me this feeling... which makes you go so warm... and your heart beats faster and you can feel every beat... and then you keep getting warm... and you feel like the tears are getting to your eyes but you don't let them fall... you think you won't look at the next pic but you just do... it just happens.. and when you get to the end of it, you just stare.... and take so much of effort to close it and get going...and then you just freeze and there are thoughts streaming through your mind and you can't seem to stop them...
Why did this hurt so much? Why did it feel this way? He is majorly into photography... major skill.. great eye for capturing nature's beauty... and I always enjoyed looking at his work...commenting... and praising him... his work is stunning... and I helped him get awards on a site in which he publishes his work...
Ok, I need to get out of this mood... A chocolate sundae with extra topping will work? Or a coffee chill with blueberry cheese cake? Hmmm....wait! I still have a slight throat pain.... aahhhh nevermind!
Wednesday, January 28, 2009
As I read
"All that truly matters in the end is that YOU loved."
From an email....that line just made me read it over and over and connect to it..... and
"Give time, time"
hmmmm.......
From an email....that line just made me read it over and over and connect to it..... and
"Give time, time"
hmmmm.......
The waves and light
Image from here
Sunlight stream through the cloudy sky
The rays so beautiful as they bring us the light
In splendid delight the waves come to shore
One after another they come, some strong and harsh.
The waves come with such strength and force
Crashing onto the clear sandy shores
Disrupting and crashing so hard and so strong
That everything would get dragged back into the sea.
I’ve had waves crashing on my sea shore
I’ve been dragged into the deep dark sea many a time
I’ve swum hard to get back to the shore
With the help of the sun rays streaming through the cloudy sky.
I’ve been through many waves in this life of mine
Now I yearn to stand on a huge solid rock
And stare out into the sea that I’ve been to so many times
With hope that I would never be dragged down again.
Yet as the waves come to shore again, one after another
It does frighten me still, as I watch them from afar
But I hope to look at the beautiful rays of sunlight
Coz all these have made me the person I’m right now.
The waves crashed, the crashes hurt
The light was the hope and help I got
They make the story of my life
I’m living it hoping for more light than waves.
Tuesday, January 27, 2009
A series of dreams & employment issues
Last night was quite weird. I had way too many dreams. After going home, I watched the two latest episodes of Supernatural with that brother of mine and then went to bed as my throat is hurting again! Eventhough I’ve been really careful and haven’t had any cool drinks or anything…. And then came the series of dreams…
First set of dreams – I saw him… in different settings.. he felt so real…. And he was just there.. and I remember I woke up half way through one and I actually had tears when I did…. People cry in their sleep? While dreaming? It felt sad…. But then I drifted off to sleep.. I don’t want to get into the details of the dreams as it only hurts and gets stuck in my head.
Then the second, my dad came and took my whole family to the beach. He let everyone be and took me for a long walk…He held my hand as we walked…. And stopped at one point to watch the sunset… then he just looked at me and said “move on LD…. don’t be like this…” and I woke up…sad again… Made me realise how much I miss him everyday.. and how life’s just never complete….
So yes…. It was sad… all this came streaming in to my mind when I was having my morning shower… if only I could have dreamless sleep…. If only I didn’t have to see these sad things that keep pulling me down…. It may be just dreams… but they feel so real sometimes….
Oh well….
Other than that, I have friends who work in a few Golden Key group companies. I’m baffled to hear that most of them are not being paid because companies don’t have funds…… Employees are not at fault for the shit that the big retards do. I just wish I knew what to do for them… My heart just broke when I heard this…. I hope all settles well… and that most of them will get other employment opportunities atleast… There are people who earn for their entire family… and those that travel a lot to get to work each day… how are they to live like this? Life is cruel at times….
First set of dreams – I saw him… in different settings.. he felt so real…. And he was just there.. and I remember I woke up half way through one and I actually had tears when I did…. People cry in their sleep? While dreaming? It felt sad…. But then I drifted off to sleep.. I don’t want to get into the details of the dreams as it only hurts and gets stuck in my head.
Then the second, my dad came and took my whole family to the beach. He let everyone be and took me for a long walk…He held my hand as we walked…. And stopped at one point to watch the sunset… then he just looked at me and said “move on LD…. don’t be like this…” and I woke up…sad again… Made me realise how much I miss him everyday.. and how life’s just never complete….
So yes…. It was sad… all this came streaming in to my mind when I was having my morning shower… if only I could have dreamless sleep…. If only I didn’t have to see these sad things that keep pulling me down…. It may be just dreams… but they feel so real sometimes….
Oh well….
Other than that, I have friends who work in a few Golden Key group companies. I’m baffled to hear that most of them are not being paid because companies don’t have funds…… Employees are not at fault for the shit that the big retards do. I just wish I knew what to do for them… My heart just broke when I heard this…. I hope all settles well… and that most of them will get other employment opportunities atleast… There are people who earn for their entire family… and those that travel a lot to get to work each day… how are they to live like this? Life is cruel at times….
Sunday, January 25, 2009
Thank you Disease!!!
OMG.... I don't believe this....
Never did I think a blogger would write about me this way... and I never thought that the little things I said ever made such a difference..
What makes me happy is the fact that you care and took time to write this out.... and you have absolutely no idea how much it means to me..
Thank you so so soooooo much Disease... for making a difference....for making my eyes fill with tears of joy.. and for making me smile and feel so touched!
This is what he wrote titled "Lady Divine"
It is much appreciated beyond words can ever say.... :)
Never did I think a blogger would write about me this way... and I never thought that the little things I said ever made such a difference..
What makes me happy is the fact that you care and took time to write this out.... and you have absolutely no idea how much it means to me..
Thank you so so soooooo much Disease... for making a difference....for making my eyes fill with tears of joy.. and for making me smile and feel so touched!
This is what he wrote titled "Lady Divine"
It is much appreciated beyond words can ever say.... :)
Saturday, January 24, 2009
Eye witness to a great deed
Today my mum suddenly got into this mood of going to Negombo to see some old family friends who have flown from Aussie. On our way back to Colombo, we were hungry, so we stopped at Mac in Mahabage (I think.. or was it Wattala?)
Anyways, when we were eating, I noticed that there was a little girl of about the age of 10, begging from the customers who walked out of Mac and also staring through the window and looking at the kiddies section with that sad look in her eyes which anyone would understand.
I thought I would buy her a meal and a chocolate sundae on my way out and not give money as the elders just make use of it. But then, there was this young couple next to us who had come on a motorbike and they were having ice cream. As they left and got onto their bike, this girl begged them for money.
At this instance, the guy and girl spoke to each other and then got off the bike and walked into Mac with that little girl. They bought her a meal and made her sit at a corner table and told the staff to just give her anything she needs. The lady then patted this girl's head and they went off.
I was highly touched and my mum was actually in tears and very happy about what this young couple did. They would've probably been in their mid or late 20s and this deed was just awesome beyond words! I mean, how often do we see good deeds like this?
That couple will be blessed.... they should be blessed with abundant light and goodness in their lives for this great act of kindness which they bestowed upon that little girl... it is just great beyond words.....
Anyways, when we were eating, I noticed that there was a little girl of about the age of 10, begging from the customers who walked out of Mac and also staring through the window and looking at the kiddies section with that sad look in her eyes which anyone would understand.
I thought I would buy her a meal and a chocolate sundae on my way out and not give money as the elders just make use of it. But then, there was this young couple next to us who had come on a motorbike and they were having ice cream. As they left and got onto their bike, this girl begged them for money.
At this instance, the guy and girl spoke to each other and then got off the bike and walked into Mac with that little girl. They bought her a meal and made her sit at a corner table and told the staff to just give her anything she needs. The lady then patted this girl's head and they went off.
I was highly touched and my mum was actually in tears and very happy about what this young couple did. They would've probably been in their mid or late 20s and this deed was just awesome beyond words! I mean, how often do we see good deeds like this?
That couple will be blessed.... they should be blessed with abundant light and goodness in their lives for this great act of kindness which they bestowed upon that little girl... it is just great beyond words.....
Friday, January 23, 2009
OMG! I got a nomination!!! woohooo!!
As you would know, I'm sick...very sick! Actually just down with tonsillitis and bad headaches... So I've been home from y-day and I'm really bored.. the mix of these can be quite harmful coz it's pulling me into a slight state of depression!
But, I found numerous movies and I've been watching them... out of which Slum dog Millionaire was really good me thought.
BUT, I just logged onto the net to check out blog updates and when I found RD's Blogging award nominations for 2008, I was stunned and excited at the same time!!
I think I'm beginning to feel better already! Thanks RD!! Thanks a LOT!!! :) Truly means a lot..:)
Yippeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!! Woohoooooooooooo!! :)
Ok Ok... I'm calm now..:)
Off to watch another movie.... as my mum has said I will NOT be allowed to go anywhere till I feel better...
See y'all! and have a great weekend!
But, I found numerous movies and I've been watching them... out of which Slum dog Millionaire was really good me thought.
BUT, I just logged onto the net to check out blog updates and when I found RD's Blogging award nominations for 2008, I was stunned and excited at the same time!!
I think I'm beginning to feel better already! Thanks RD!! Thanks a LOT!!! :) Truly means a lot..:)
Yippeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!! Woohoooooooooooo!! :)
Ok Ok... I'm calm now..:)
Off to watch another movie.... as my mum has said I will NOT be allowed to go anywhere till I feel better...
See y'all! and have a great weekend!
Wednesday, January 21, 2009
So sickish....
I did this stupid mistake of drinking iced apple juice the night before last and slept under the fan... and from y-day I've been having this throat pain.. So did the smart thing of buying anti-biotics and started taking them from last afternoon... The this morning, it just got worse.. and I've got a cold... and a headache..
And I'm here at work today coz there's an important meeting happening... sigh!!
Gosh it hurts.. I can't even think of drinking water..
I just....want to go home........... but no... I will hang on...
and I'm also craving for chocolate cake with ice cream! How sad..:(
I think my ears are also getting blocked on and off... what if I don't hear things right at the meeting? argh! I hope no one questions me!
WAIT- As I was typing this post, I was kindly told that the meeting isn't going to happen as they need to re-look at some of the stuff!
Bummer!! Damnit!!!! Shit!!! Why oh why??????
sigh
Over and out.
And I'm here at work today coz there's an important meeting happening... sigh!!
Gosh it hurts.. I can't even think of drinking water..
I just....want to go home........... but no... I will hang on...
and I'm also craving for chocolate cake with ice cream! How sad..:(
I think my ears are also getting blocked on and off... what if I don't hear things right at the meeting? argh! I hope no one questions me!
WAIT- As I was typing this post, I was kindly told that the meeting isn't going to happen as they need to re-look at some of the stuff!
Bummer!! Damnit!!!! Shit!!! Why oh why??????
sigh
Over and out.
Monday, January 19, 2009
Getting to know me....
At work.... monday morning... doesn't feel too great today.... So took a few minutes off and did this....:) Not jobless.. just needed to take myself a little away from the work...
So here it is.. I saw this on Sabby's and Sachintha's blog...
Here we go:
1. What time did you get up this morning?
7.15 AM
2. Diamonds or pearls?
Diamonds
3. What was the last film you saw at the cinema?
Dark Knight I think……oh boy, it’s been a while!
4. What is your favorite TV show?
Prison Break & Heroes for now.
5. What do you usually have for breakfast?
Toast, noodles, sandwiches or kiribath.
6. What is your middle name?
Hmmmm... who wants to know?:)
7. What food do you dislike?
I can never eat pumpkin and papaya.. they make me throw up and I don’t know why…
8. What is your favorite album at the moment?
Hmmm…. Anna Nalick’s “Wreck of the day” and One republic’s album.
9. What kind of car do you drive?
A hot red sexy Beetle looking Swift..:)
10. Favorite sandwich?
Grilled Cheese & ham...
11. What characteristics do you despise?
Lying…backstabbing…. And a few more.
12. Favorite item of clothing?
Skirts and black t-shirts and sexy inner clothing..:)
13. If you could go anywhere in the world on vacation, where would you go?
Hmm… Paris and China for now..:)
14. Favorite brand of clothing?
Around here it’s Odel I suppose… it’s more like what’s available…
15. Where would you retire to?
That’s a tough one.. haven’t thought about it.. A nice beach house… or a place similar to the one I visited in Kosgoda last month. Or in a lovely mansion or a beautiful cottage on a lovely mountaintop in Nuwara eliya/Kandy..:)
16. What was your most memorable birthday?
18th was a blast! And 21st was the saddest.
17. Favorite sport to watch?
Don't watch much sports.. Used to love watching tennis matches & Soccer…
18. When is your birthday?
3rd May 1984.
19. Are you a morning person or a night person?
Night person
20. What is your shoe size?
38
21. Pets?
No pets anymore..:( sniff sniff
22. Any new and exciting news you'd like to share with us?
Nothing really at the moment.
23. What did you want to be when you were little?
A lawyer.
24. How are you today?
Not that great.
25. What is your favorite candy?
Chocolates!!
26. What kind of flowers do you like?
White roses and purple tulips
27. What day on the calendar are you looking forward to?
No day in particular…. Just living one day at a time.
28. What is your full name?
No way am I saying it here….:)
29. What are you listening to right now?
Gospel music which is being played loudly by the guy in the next workstation!
30. What was the last thing you ate?
Kiribath with Chilli paste! :)
31. Do you wish on stars?
Used to....:)
32. If you were a crayon, what color would you be?
Purple
33. What is the weather like right now?
Hot….sunny… and so freaking warm!
34. First person you spoke to on the phone today?
A client! Sigh… that sucks!
35. Favorite soft drink?
Coke and Mountain Dew.
36. Favorite restaurant?
Don’t have favourites really..Fastfood would be Hardeez and Pizza Hut (chains in the Middle East coz they taste nicer there!)
37. Real hair color?
Black.
38. Favorite toy as a child?
Barbie dolls…lots of them!
39. Summer or winter?
Summer…
40. Hugs or kisses?
Both! And lots of it!
41. Chocolate or vanilla?
Chocolate!!
42. Coffee or tea?
Coffee
43. When was the last time you cried?
The day before y-day.
44. What is under your bed?
Hmmm…. A beauty case with some stuff in it!.. weird I know.. I don’t like to keep things under my bed.
45. What did you do last night?
Went to the Bellanvila temple with my family and prayed.
46. What are you afraid of?
I will be afraid and feel awful if life does not turn for the better.
47. Salty or sweet?
Sweet!
48. How many keys on your key ring?
Hmm… Just one.
49. Favorite day of the week?
Usually Friday.
50. How many towns you lived in?
4.
51. Do you make friends easily?
Usually yes…..depends on the mood I guess..
So here it is.. I saw this on Sabby's and Sachintha's blog...
Here we go:
1. What time did you get up this morning?
7.15 AM
2. Diamonds or pearls?
Diamonds
3. What was the last film you saw at the cinema?
Dark Knight I think……oh boy, it’s been a while!
4. What is your favorite TV show?
Prison Break & Heroes for now.
5. What do you usually have for breakfast?
Toast, noodles, sandwiches or kiribath.
6. What is your middle name?
Hmmmm... who wants to know?:)
7. What food do you dislike?
I can never eat pumpkin and papaya.. they make me throw up and I don’t know why…
8. What is your favorite album at the moment?
Hmmm…. Anna Nalick’s “Wreck of the day” and One republic’s album.
9. What kind of car do you drive?
A hot red sexy Beetle looking Swift..:)
10. Favorite sandwich?
Grilled Cheese & ham...
11. What characteristics do you despise?
Lying…backstabbing…. And a few more.
12. Favorite item of clothing?
Skirts and black t-shirts and sexy inner clothing..:)
13. If you could go anywhere in the world on vacation, where would you go?
Hmm… Paris and China for now..:)
14. Favorite brand of clothing?
Around here it’s Odel I suppose… it’s more like what’s available…
15. Where would you retire to?
That’s a tough one.. haven’t thought about it.. A nice beach house… or a place similar to the one I visited in Kosgoda last month. Or in a lovely mansion or a beautiful cottage on a lovely mountaintop in Nuwara eliya/Kandy..:)
16. What was your most memorable birthday?
18th was a blast! And 21st was the saddest.
17. Favorite sport to watch?
Don't watch much sports.. Used to love watching tennis matches & Soccer…
18. When is your birthday?
3rd May 1984.
19. Are you a morning person or a night person?
Night person
20. What is your shoe size?
38
21. Pets?
No pets anymore..:( sniff sniff
22. Any new and exciting news you'd like to share with us?
Nothing really at the moment.
23. What did you want to be when you were little?
A lawyer.
24. How are you today?
Not that great.
25. What is your favorite candy?
Chocolates!!
26. What kind of flowers do you like?
White roses and purple tulips
27. What day on the calendar are you looking forward to?
No day in particular…. Just living one day at a time.
28. What is your full name?
No way am I saying it here….:)
29. What are you listening to right now?
Gospel music which is being played loudly by the guy in the next workstation!
30. What was the last thing you ate?
Kiribath with Chilli paste! :)
31. Do you wish on stars?
Used to....:)
32. If you were a crayon, what color would you be?
Purple
33. What is the weather like right now?
Hot….sunny… and so freaking warm!
34. First person you spoke to on the phone today?
A client! Sigh… that sucks!
35. Favorite soft drink?
Coke and Mountain Dew.
36. Favorite restaurant?
Don’t have favourites really..Fastfood would be Hardeez and Pizza Hut (chains in the Middle East coz they taste nicer there!)
37. Real hair color?
Black.
38. Favorite toy as a child?
Barbie dolls…lots of them!
39. Summer or winter?
Summer…
40. Hugs or kisses?
Both! And lots of it!
41. Chocolate or vanilla?
Chocolate!!
42. Coffee or tea?
Coffee
43. When was the last time you cried?
The day before y-day.
44. What is under your bed?
Hmmm…. A beauty case with some stuff in it!.. weird I know.. I don’t like to keep things under my bed.
45. What did you do last night?
Went to the Bellanvila temple with my family and prayed.
46. What are you afraid of?
I will be afraid and feel awful if life does not turn for the better.
47. Salty or sweet?
Sweet!
48. How many keys on your key ring?
Hmm… Just one.
49. Favorite day of the week?
Usually Friday.
50. How many towns you lived in?
4.
51. Do you make friends easily?
Usually yes…..depends on the mood I guess..
Friday, January 16, 2009
I have a dream.....
A song to sing…….. (humming the tune of that song.. Westlife’s version).
I had this weird dream last night... really weird….and it’s stuck in my head so I read up about it in a dream dictionary which a blogger had sent me long ago….
I dreamt that I got pregnant this February. And by June, I had one of them pregnant round bellies! I actually remember the months also.. how weird is that?
Then, I was being taken care of by my mum and her best friend came to see me and to just talk to me… they were giggling and all chirpy and happy.. and I had mixed feelings but was delighted and excited too….
Maybe last night’s swim gave me an overdose of chlorine? Or is it that the nice guy I met in my cim class who also goes to the same pool I go to is now in my facebook? Funnily, he doesn’t interest me anymore.. he flirts too much..in his own way… you know them guys who appear to be silent and have their way around women? I now know better to stay away..:)
So yea, that’s my dream…
I had this weird dream last night... really weird….and it’s stuck in my head so I read up about it in a dream dictionary which a blogger had sent me long ago….
I dreamt that I got pregnant this February. And by June, I had one of them pregnant round bellies! I actually remember the months also.. how weird is that?
Then, I was being taken care of by my mum and her best friend came to see me and to just talk to me… they were giggling and all chirpy and happy.. and I had mixed feelings but was delighted and excited too….
Maybe last night’s swim gave me an overdose of chlorine? Or is it that the nice guy I met in my cim class who also goes to the same pool I go to is now in my facebook? Funnily, he doesn’t interest me anymore.. he flirts too much..in his own way… you know them guys who appear to be silent and have their way around women? I now know better to stay away..:)
So yea, that’s my dream…
Thursday, January 15, 2009
Mid-week holidayyy
I like mid-week holidays.. They give you that time to just relax and in my case, I take my mum around when I’m on holidays as I’ve got no classes anymore… I really can’t wait till results come at the end of next month to see how I’ve done so that I decide on what to do next.
So yes, holidays I take my mum around during the day time.. then in the eve mummy dearest decides she wants to go for a jog with bro and me to the beach and then go to the temple.. That was good though.. refreshing and nice.. and the beach was unbelievably crowded and there was this one tall, dark and handsome dude who had a body which was amazingly awesome! He kept jogging from one end to the other.. and I was highly distracted by this.. He would smile as he jogged past me and probably knew that women look at him coz he was so fine… and Dee, I think he was tamil too..:) But I never smiled really… just gave him a half smile or looked away when he was going past me.. too obvious, I know.. oh well..
It was also hot when he started helping his overweight friend do some ab crunches on the beach and all… and did some himself! He was in a light blue t-shirt and dark blue shorts.. and when it came to the third round of jogging, his t-shirt was off! :D
Ok, enough about him… So yes, that was my holiday.. my mum loves to go to the Bellanvila Temple… We go there a few times every month I guess.. It is very peaceful too… and nice..
Now at work, I’ve been shifted to a bigger brand…. And well, I’m supposed to expect shit loads of work..
Last night I also watched this movie “The women”. It was kinda nice.. Was nice to see Meg Ryan again! and got me thinking about some advice in it..." What Do I Want?"
So yes, holidays I take my mum around during the day time.. then in the eve mummy dearest decides she wants to go for a jog with bro and me to the beach and then go to the temple.. That was good though.. refreshing and nice.. and the beach was unbelievably crowded and there was this one tall, dark and handsome dude who had a body which was amazingly awesome! He kept jogging from one end to the other.. and I was highly distracted by this.. He would smile as he jogged past me and probably knew that women look at him coz he was so fine… and Dee, I think he was tamil too..:) But I never smiled really… just gave him a half smile or looked away when he was going past me.. too obvious, I know.. oh well..
It was also hot when he started helping his overweight friend do some ab crunches on the beach and all… and did some himself! He was in a light blue t-shirt and dark blue shorts.. and when it came to the third round of jogging, his t-shirt was off! :D
Ok, enough about him… So yes, that was my holiday.. my mum loves to go to the Bellanvila Temple… We go there a few times every month I guess.. It is very peaceful too… and nice..
Now at work, I’ve been shifted to a bigger brand…. And well, I’m supposed to expect shit loads of work..
Last night I also watched this movie “The women”. It was kinda nice.. Was nice to see Meg Ryan again! and got me thinking about some advice in it..." What Do I Want?"
Monday, January 12, 2009
Messy emotions
You cross my mind all the time
Everytime I shop, I envision you
Whenever I sit down to watch a movie, I think of you
Music I listen to, brings you alive in my mind
People I see on the street makes me wonder of you
These hands that caressed you, held you with so much of warmth and love
The tight hugs that you got were overflowing with emotions and care
This mind and mouth said many a prayer for your well being
These eyes never seem to stop overflowing when you cross my mind at times.
I’ve tried so many times to move away from these thoughts. Sometimes it only gets harder…
Yesterday while doing the last bit of relaxation/ meditation during yoga, my mind got messy with all these thoughts and I could feel my eyes fill up with tears. I was hoping no one noticed and just couldn’t stop it…. I wanted to run out of class…. But decided to remain calm and get going with the meditation.
I try not to talk about it so that people will think I’ve moved on and this would help me move on. But at times, it only gets harder.
This makes me wonder; did I love and care so much? So much that I can’t seem to drift away and start anew? So much that I sometimes wonder why I ever got myself into this…. And why I ever cared so much……
Everytime I shop, I envision you
Whenever I sit down to watch a movie, I think of you
Music I listen to, brings you alive in my mind
People I see on the street makes me wonder of you
These hands that caressed you, held you with so much of warmth and love
The tight hugs that you got were overflowing with emotions and care
This mind and mouth said many a prayer for your well being
These eyes never seem to stop overflowing when you cross my mind at times.
I’ve tried so many times to move away from these thoughts. Sometimes it only gets harder…
Yesterday while doing the last bit of relaxation/ meditation during yoga, my mind got messy with all these thoughts and I could feel my eyes fill up with tears. I was hoping no one noticed and just couldn’t stop it…. I wanted to run out of class…. But decided to remain calm and get going with the meditation.
I try not to talk about it so that people will think I’ve moved on and this would help me move on. But at times, it only gets harder.
This makes me wonder; did I love and care so much? So much that I can’t seem to drift away and start anew? So much that I sometimes wonder why I ever got myself into this…. And why I ever cared so much……
My mother....a mechanic?
My weekend was pretty much boring…. It was good food, lots of sleep, movies, yoga, a bit of car trouble and my mother who turned into a mechanic!
Movies – The good ones I watched were Annapolis, Changeling, Seven Pounds (absolutely LOVED it!!), Righteous Kill and Space Chimps (very sweeeeeeeeeeet)….
The last evening, my mother and the servant (who only turns up on weekends) were getting ready to go to the temple. For some reason I thought I’ll join them and instead of letting them walk, thought I’d drive… and then as I got into the car and tried to start it, it just didn’t work at all!
Looked like a battery problem.. and what I have is one of those sealed non-maintenance type batteries and so after calling the brother to check on it, we realised it was a battery problem and called the neighbour to bring his car with the jumper kit to charge the battery.
Well, it was the first time anything ever went wrong and hey, vehicles are like that.
While that was happening, this is what my mother said once she started to panic:
First she talks to the servant lady – “LD is always lucky this way… just imagine, what if she went for a swim or something in the night and the car doesn’t start. It’s a miracle that she felt like going with us today and taking the car. That way she realised that something was wrong with the car. Otherwise she would’ve waited till tomorrow morning and that would’ve been when she’s leaving for work and that would’ve caused so much of trouble.”
Then she turns towards me and the brother – “ Aiyo.. what if it’s not a problem with the battery? What if something’s wrong with the engine? We don’t know no. What if the earlier owners figured something was wrong with the engine and did something just enough to sell it off to someone else? Aiyo, we should’ve bought that other black car. It seemed to be in such good conditions. What if it’s not only an engine problem? What if it leads to more problems later? Blah blah blah..
At this point, my bro and I had enough and we kindly told her that it’s just a battery issue and the car’s fine.. and that we don’t really need her to turn into a mechanic.
The neighbour comes, charges the battery… I take it out for a long drive and get back.
Then neighbour removed the car battery, and left it to charge all night with a battery charger and said that the battery was fine and issue was there were quite a lot of oxide built on the nodes or rather the two ends that let the charge out.. I’m really not sure what you call it…
So Mandy (car) is fine now… All I have to do is get the battery replaced into a normal one a little later.. and my mother, can be painfully dramatic at the most unexpected times and it can get very annoying.. but it’s also highly hilarious to listen to her.. until she’s proven wrong and told calmly that nothing she predicted happened..
Oh mothers I tell ya! :)
Then at night she says "LD, I wanted to talk to you... there are a few proposals.... ....."
And I got this really bad headache and had to sleep... Zzzzzzzz
Movies – The good ones I watched were Annapolis, Changeling, Seven Pounds (absolutely LOVED it!!), Righteous Kill and Space Chimps (very sweeeeeeeeeeet)….
The last evening, my mother and the servant (who only turns up on weekends) were getting ready to go to the temple. For some reason I thought I’ll join them and instead of letting them walk, thought I’d drive… and then as I got into the car and tried to start it, it just didn’t work at all!
Looked like a battery problem.. and what I have is one of those sealed non-maintenance type batteries and so after calling the brother to check on it, we realised it was a battery problem and called the neighbour to bring his car with the jumper kit to charge the battery.
Well, it was the first time anything ever went wrong and hey, vehicles are like that.
While that was happening, this is what my mother said once she started to panic:
First she talks to the servant lady – “LD is always lucky this way… just imagine, what if she went for a swim or something in the night and the car doesn’t start. It’s a miracle that she felt like going with us today and taking the car. That way she realised that something was wrong with the car. Otherwise she would’ve waited till tomorrow morning and that would’ve been when she’s leaving for work and that would’ve caused so much of trouble.”
Then she turns towards me and the brother – “ Aiyo.. what if it’s not a problem with the battery? What if something’s wrong with the engine? We don’t know no. What if the earlier owners figured something was wrong with the engine and did something just enough to sell it off to someone else? Aiyo, we should’ve bought that other black car. It seemed to be in such good conditions. What if it’s not only an engine problem? What if it leads to more problems later? Blah blah blah..
At this point, my bro and I had enough and we kindly told her that it’s just a battery issue and the car’s fine.. and that we don’t really need her to turn into a mechanic.
The neighbour comes, charges the battery… I take it out for a long drive and get back.
Then neighbour removed the car battery, and left it to charge all night with a battery charger and said that the battery was fine and issue was there were quite a lot of oxide built on the nodes or rather the two ends that let the charge out.. I’m really not sure what you call it…
So Mandy (car) is fine now… All I have to do is get the battery replaced into a normal one a little later.. and my mother, can be painfully dramatic at the most unexpected times and it can get very annoying.. but it’s also highly hilarious to listen to her.. until she’s proven wrong and told calmly that nothing she predicted happened..
Oh mothers I tell ya! :)
Then at night she says "LD, I wanted to talk to you... there are a few proposals.... ....."
And I got this really bad headache and had to sleep... Zzzzzzzz
Friday, January 09, 2009
Sudden thought
I'm currently reading "The Monk who sold his Ferrari" By Robin Sharma which was given to me by DQ. Quite an interesting book.. much similar to The Secret. A book that talks a lot about positive thinking and the whole works...
Then this thought struck me while reading it.
"what lies behind me and what lies in front of me is nothing when compared to what lies within me"
The book can get a wee bit boring.. but holds a lot of knowledge and simple things that we can do in life... which may have a great impact later..:)
I'm still reading.... and liking it...
Then this thought struck me while reading it.
"what lies behind me and what lies in front of me is nothing when compared to what lies within me"
The book can get a wee bit boring.. but holds a lot of knowledge and simple things that we can do in life... which may have a great impact later..:)
I'm still reading.... and liking it...
Thursday, January 08, 2009
Pub night out
Yesterday 3 office friends and I went to a pub after work… One of them is leaving us and she wanted to hang out with the ones who are close to her.. So we went… and I must say it was nice.. I’m a good girl who can stick only to beer..:)
The boys were not really heavy drinkers either so we had a beer conversation. It was fun.. they started talking about other colleagues.. and by now I know NOT to open my gap and say things about others coz they can travel around in weird ways… So I listened.. and if something bad was said about someone else and if I had an explanation to why it could be so, I’d open my gap and say it… Not exactly being defensive, but being rational and giving a possible explanation to why certain things could be the way they are.. and this certainly got them thinking too and agreeing to what I said as well..
Anyway, after office talk it went to personal problems… One guy had this major problem and when it was let out, we all gave our opinions, views and 2 cents and then successfully gave him a line of solutions! We were also quite impressed… and this problem talk went around the table and since I was just the participant who was actively listening and not talking much, suddenly, it was like that game ‘spin the bottle’ when everyone were looking at me and asking me to share my problem and say why I’ve been so upset the last couple of months and why I sink into this sad mood sometimes.
I just told them on the surface of what happened (without many details) a snap shot of the past long long ago.. then the recent past and now… then they all went silent for a while when I was done… It was surprising coz I hardly told them much.. just a very very brief snapshot.. and then the girl who’s leaving suddenly said “For some weird reason, I feel like the best times in your life are yet to come and you deserve so much more for who you are”.
It truly touched me! To hear it from someone like that..and I just smiled….
So yea, it was a good night out actually…. I was very very cautious of the things I said.. and they all know that I don’t go repeating things I hear so I think they were very comfortable with me being around.. It’s nice to know there are good people in office, apart from Awesome friend..:)
Oh and now I’m highly amused by the tagline of a friend on MSN… It says “They Keep saying the right person will come along, I think mine got hit by a truck “
Funny.. and kinda true… me thinks..:)
The boys were not really heavy drinkers either so we had a beer conversation. It was fun.. they started talking about other colleagues.. and by now I know NOT to open my gap and say things about others coz they can travel around in weird ways… So I listened.. and if something bad was said about someone else and if I had an explanation to why it could be so, I’d open my gap and say it… Not exactly being defensive, but being rational and giving a possible explanation to why certain things could be the way they are.. and this certainly got them thinking too and agreeing to what I said as well..
Anyway, after office talk it went to personal problems… One guy had this major problem and when it was let out, we all gave our opinions, views and 2 cents and then successfully gave him a line of solutions! We were also quite impressed… and this problem talk went around the table and since I was just the participant who was actively listening and not talking much, suddenly, it was like that game ‘spin the bottle’ when everyone were looking at me and asking me to share my problem and say why I’ve been so upset the last couple of months and why I sink into this sad mood sometimes.
I just told them on the surface of what happened (without many details) a snap shot of the past long long ago.. then the recent past and now… then they all went silent for a while when I was done… It was surprising coz I hardly told them much.. just a very very brief snapshot.. and then the girl who’s leaving suddenly said “For some weird reason, I feel like the best times in your life are yet to come and you deserve so much more for who you are”.
It truly touched me! To hear it from someone like that..and I just smiled….
So yea, it was a good night out actually…. I was very very cautious of the things I said.. and they all know that I don’t go repeating things I hear so I think they were very comfortable with me being around.. It’s nice to know there are good people in office, apart from Awesome friend..:)
Oh and now I’m highly amused by the tagline of a friend on MSN… It says “They Keep saying the right person will come along, I think mine got hit by a truck “
Funny.. and kinda true… me thinks..:)
Monday, January 05, 2009
A deal with the mother
My mum's a bit of a yoga freak. She's been at it for years and loves it! I used to do yoga during my A/Ls coz I used to play tennis in school and had this problem where my knee cap would slip out and then, after pushing it back in, I would have trouble walking for a few days.
So I was asked to do yoga and that problem was actually cured! So eversince I finished exams last month, my mum's been at it.. She was pushing me so hard to do it. Yoga is slow.. and boring to me... But since she wouldn't stop, I made a deal..
I said I'll go for yoga on weekends (since she just wouldn't stop talking and screaming about it) and the deal is she can't talk about it at home and annoy me all the time...
So the deal was made.. I went for my first yoga class in years last saturday... I was SO bored.. and I kept repeating this line in my head "I hate yoga.. i hate yoga.."
But, I must say the twisting, stretching and bending made use of all my muscles.. and every inch of my body was hurting the next day! I couldn't get off the bed this morning and when I did, I didn't move for a while!
I still don't like it.. but a deal is a deal.. So I will go.... argh! Why am I the one to face all these things... I hate it when someone forces me to do something I don't like... I'm not a baby... if ONLY my mum would understand that and let me be.. sigh!
Anyways, funny part is, some of the women ACTUALLY fall asleep during the meditation at the end and need to be woken up.. it's quite funny too.. lol
The instrustor is already trying to get me to stand on my head.. I used to do it those days... but I need to take it slow.. coz the asanas I used to master back then, hurt right now.. So I need to give it some time and get the hang of it...
I still don't like it! Period! I think I feel this way coz my mum pushed me into it.....
yea I know... I'm stubborn.. and well... just human..:)
So I was asked to do yoga and that problem was actually cured! So eversince I finished exams last month, my mum's been at it.. She was pushing me so hard to do it. Yoga is slow.. and boring to me... But since she wouldn't stop, I made a deal..
I said I'll go for yoga on weekends (since she just wouldn't stop talking and screaming about it) and the deal is she can't talk about it at home and annoy me all the time...
So the deal was made.. I went for my first yoga class in years last saturday... I was SO bored.. and I kept repeating this line in my head "I hate yoga.. i hate yoga.."
But, I must say the twisting, stretching and bending made use of all my muscles.. and every inch of my body was hurting the next day! I couldn't get off the bed this morning and when I did, I didn't move for a while!
I still don't like it.. but a deal is a deal.. So I will go.... argh! Why am I the one to face all these things... I hate it when someone forces me to do something I don't like... I'm not a baby... if ONLY my mum would understand that and let me be.. sigh!
Anyways, funny part is, some of the women ACTUALLY fall asleep during the meditation at the end and need to be woken up.. it's quite funny too.. lol
The instrustor is already trying to get me to stand on my head.. I used to do it those days... but I need to take it slow.. coz the asanas I used to master back then, hurt right now.. So I need to give it some time and get the hang of it...
I still don't like it! Period! I think I feel this way coz my mum pushed me into it.....
yea I know... I'm stubborn.. and well... just human..:)
Saturday, January 03, 2009
Randomies and another tag
Day before yesterday I was contemplating on whether to wish 'him' (mentioned here and here and in many other posts) or not for the new year… I wouldn’t have called.. but was wondering whether to txt or not… then I realized, he did txt me the night before his b’day and when I replied wishing him, he never replied back… stupid it may be, but it does hurt and feel sad… so taking in to account the possibility that I’ll be hurt again if he doesn’t reply for new year wishes, I thought I won’t.. but I do wish him a good new year….
Now that it is off my system, I had the most boring day ever yesterday! What kept me alive was shopping at MC during lunch with Gutterflower and a good jog with Deecee after work..:)
Then I had a problem with my internet browser at work….. everything I typed, kept getting typed backwards! Imagine how annoying it was! For instance, if I was typing ‘retard’… it came out as ‘drater’! So got one of the IT experts in office to fix it for me and that took quite a long time and he was also playing around with an incense stick which was lit and managed to burn my skirt and create hole in it at the back!
A small burnt mark that was.. how did this happen? I was peeping at the screen when he was explaining something and he was holding the incense stick at a distance and I didn’t realize it touched my skirt! I love that skirt! A nice flary black one with white line drawn circles all over it… Ok, I think my description came out weird but it was a lovely skirt! Sigh… the mark isn’t that visible.. but still….:(
I’m so bored.. in a bit of a sad mood….perhaps I should watch one of the many movies I got..
Have a good weekend y’all!
Oh.. I was also tagged by The Doc… I don’t really have resolutions… but here’s what I’d like to do…
-Be less sad this year and hope there will be many others things to be happy about.
-Travel around…. Go overseas for a vacation.
-Think of a MBA.
-Lose weight and get really fit… now that I actually have time for it and eventhough my options are quite less due to a back problem and ankle problem, I could try harder with the few options.
-Be as generous as I can to help those in need…. I’m talking about meals and necessities to orphanages, monks, beggars etc.
-Learn more about the importance of generating good karma… get more engaged in such activities and deeds with my family.
-Try to save a little bit of money without always spending money that I don’t even have!
-See what my options are at the current work place and if I don’t see any improvement in terms of self development, look out for a better option, perhaps towards the end of the year.
-Try something new...something I could get to like... still wondering what it could be..:)
-Learn to play the guitar...somehow!
That’s all I can think of at the moment… anyone who reads this and likes to give it a go.. you’re most welcome to do so.. I leave it as an open tag..:)
Now that it is off my system, I had the most boring day ever yesterday! What kept me alive was shopping at MC during lunch with Gutterflower and a good jog with Deecee after work..:)
Then I had a problem with my internet browser at work….. everything I typed, kept getting typed backwards! Imagine how annoying it was! For instance, if I was typing ‘retard’… it came out as ‘drater’! So got one of the IT experts in office to fix it for me and that took quite a long time and he was also playing around with an incense stick which was lit and managed to burn my skirt and create hole in it at the back!
A small burnt mark that was.. how did this happen? I was peeping at the screen when he was explaining something and he was holding the incense stick at a distance and I didn’t realize it touched my skirt! I love that skirt! A nice flary black one with white line drawn circles all over it… Ok, I think my description came out weird but it was a lovely skirt! Sigh… the mark isn’t that visible.. but still….:(
I’m so bored.. in a bit of a sad mood….perhaps I should watch one of the many movies I got..
Have a good weekend y’all!
Oh.. I was also tagged by The Doc… I don’t really have resolutions… but here’s what I’d like to do…
-Be less sad this year and hope there will be many others things to be happy about.
-Travel around…. Go overseas for a vacation.
-Think of a MBA.
-Lose weight and get really fit… now that I actually have time for it and eventhough my options are quite less due to a back problem and ankle problem, I could try harder with the few options.
-Be as generous as I can to help those in need…. I’m talking about meals and necessities to orphanages, monks, beggars etc.
-Learn more about the importance of generating good karma… get more engaged in such activities and deeds with my family.
-Try to save a little bit of money without always spending money that I don’t even have!
-See what my options are at the current work place and if I don’t see any improvement in terms of self development, look out for a better option, perhaps towards the end of the year.
-Try something new...something I could get to like... still wondering what it could be..:)
-Learn to play the guitar...somehow!
That’s all I can think of at the moment… anyone who reads this and likes to give it a go.. you’re most welcome to do so.. I leave it as an open tag..:)
Thursday, January 01, 2009
A new beginning...
A new year... and how did I start it? The usual way... Family gets dressed, meets up with neighbours at half past 11pm... and then head to the temple... We pray with the monks... get blessed.... bless the country... hope for the best..and get home with a renewed feeling of hope...
and now...*yaaaaaaaawnnnnnnnnn*
I hope this year would be better.... much better than the last... for all of us..:)
Take care.. with blessings and love,
LD..:)
I'm sitting in office... freezing under the AC... wrapped in a saree... wrapped so tight by my darling mother.. and I can barely breathe!!
and now...*yaaaaaaaawnnnnnnnnn*
I hope this year would be better.... much better than the last... for all of us..:)
Take care.. with blessings and love,
LD..:)
I'm sitting in office... freezing under the AC... wrapped in a saree... wrapped so tight by my darling mother.. and I can barely breathe!!
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